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På onsdag, så gikk jeg ned, til Bekkestua sentrum, for å kjøpe mat.

Så sånn var det.

Bare noe jeg tenkte på.

Mvh.

Erik Ribsskog

PS.

Da jeg gikk ut døra.

Så var det noen som lagde helvete, (må jeg si).

Det stod en varebil der, (fra en gjerde-fabrikk i Drammen).

Og den blokkerte nesten hele gangveien, (en vei som det egentlig er forbudt å kjøre på).

Og på den lille plassen som var igjen.

Så stod det, to kraftkarer.

Og jeg hadde med søpla, så jeg kunne ikke gå rundt.

Og han største/eldste av kraftkarene begynte å si, (på bebrokkent norsk vel): 'Værsågod, værsågod'.

(Noe sånt).

Men han flytta seg ikke ordentlig.

Så jeg måtte gå, litt inni hagen, til en av naboene, for å kommer forbi bilen og gubbene.

(For å si det sånn).

Så sånn var det.

Bare noe jeg tenkte på.

Men men.

PS 2.

Her er mer om dette:



PS 3.

Nedi lia, så stod det en kar, og skifta, (og befølte lårene sine, må jeg si, at det så ut som), utafor en hvit varebil:



PS 4.

Her kan man se litt av kaoset, (som vellet kaller det), i Bekkestua sentrum, (og som vellene har gitt opp å gjøre noe med):



PS 5.

Da jeg kom til 'katakombene'.

Så tenkte jeg, at jeg prøver å gå veien forbi Rema.

(For der er 'katakombene' litt kortere).

Men da jeg kom rundt et uoversiktelig hjørne der, (rett for Rema).

Så var det en utlending, som satt oppå, en slags feie-bil muligens, midt oppi kaoset.

(Før han ble stoppet av en bygningsarbeider.

Noe sånt).

Så det er ikke bare trangt og jævlig, når man skal gå, (de vanlige veiene), til Bekkestua sentrum.

Det er også veldig uoversiktelig, (når man går rundt hjørner osv.).

Og der står det ofte, noen apekatter, (eller hva man skal si), og tuller/skremmer.

(For å si det sånn).

Så sånn er det.

Bare noe jeg tenkte på.

Men men.

PS 6.

Her er mer om dette:

PS 7.

Noen meter lenger framme, så var det igjen uoversiktelig.

Og en bygningsarbeider stod, på fortauet, og gjorde noen nesten 'ballettdanser-aktige' greier.

Og det var en del trafikk der, og siden at det var uoversiktelig, så var det ikke lett å se, om det var fortau, på den andre siden av gata, (den dagen).

Og en maskin, begynte også, å hamre istykker fortauet.

Så det var rimelig kaotisk/uoversiktelig der.

De jobber også på sjølve fortauet, (og ikke kun der de har sperret av).

(For å si det sånn).

Så sånn var det.

Bare noe jeg tenkte på.

Men men.

PS 8.

Her er mer om dette:

PS 9.

Enda mer om dette:



PS 10.

Og enda mer om dette:



PS 11.

Ei av disse kvinnfolka gikk meg ned, (for hu gikk bort til søppelkassa, rett foran meg, som om jeg liksom var usynlig):

PS 12.

Hm:



PS 13.

Jeg tenkte at jeg skulle fylle på reisekortet mitt, sånn at jeg kunne ta t-banen hjem, (via Haslum), for å slippe unna Arne Olav Lund, (som visst er et Larvik-firma, en by min mor bodde i), sine arbeider/'terrasse-klage-gubber', men billett-automaten var full av søppel:



PS 14.

Det stod også en vag tekst, på skjermen, på billett-automaten.

Det stod at de skulle avvikles våren 2021.

Men det er jo nå.

Så derfor ble det vagt, (må jeg si).

Og for en dårlig ide.

Nå må man jo enten ha en Iphone til 100.000, liksom.

Ellers så må kan kjøpe billetter, av 'brumlebass-fremmedarbeidere', på Narvesen.

(For å si det sånn).

Så sånn er det.

Bare noe jeg tenkte på.

Men men.

PS 15.

Extra Bekkestua har en ordblind butikksjef, som sitter på kontoret hele dagen, og lager sine egne plakater, osv.:

PS 16.

Her er mer om dette:



https://kundeavis.coop.no/aviser/?id=4797

PS 17.

Jeg fikk meg ikke til å kjøpe barberskum der, (for det stod en fremmedkulturell Extra-medarbeider, og lagde helvete, (må man vel si), i den trange/rotete midtgangen):

PS 18.

Stemning fra Bekkestua:



PS 19.

På Bekkestua Senter, så hadde de flytta på 'Høtten-benken', (de burde kanskje gjøre seg ferdige med å vaske, før de åpner senteret):



PS 20.

Det gjerdet, (på Meny Bekkestua), som min tidligere kollega Merethe, (fra Rimi Bjørndal), muligens ødela, for en måneds tid sia, (siden at hu er så feit), var fortsatt ikke fiksa:

PS 21.

De hadde visst glemt igjen en nøkkel, da de låste opp senteret, den dagen, (hm):



PS 22.

Mer om Ruter sine 'geniale' planer:



PS 23.

Her er mer om dette:



PS 24.

Enda mer om dette:

Nå har jeg leid et nytt shell, som jeg skal prøve å gjenopplive irc-boten Einstein på, (siden at blablabot er litt ustabil)

Enda mer fra irc

Session Start: tor. apr 22 01:13:35 2021

Session Ident: #quiz-show

[01:13.35] * skorpa is now known as skorpion

[01:23.29] <cxp> cxp> å holde sjelen i SJOKK

[01:23.29] <cxp> 21:57:22 < cxp> psykologi

[01:23.29] <cxp> 21:57:48 < cxp> i bakhodet? ingenting

[01:23.30] <cxp> 21:57:57 < cxp> psykotiske symptomer

[01:23.32] <cxp> 21:58:30 < cxp> det er farlig

[01:23.45] <cxp> applegroo> at fyren ikke er frisk har jeg skjønt lenge, er ikke alt man kan skylde på promillen heller

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[15:37.42] <cxp>                       kan skylde på promillen helle

[15:37.49] <cxp>                       skjønt lenge, er ikke alt man

[15:37.59] <cxp> 22:18:07 < applegroo> at fyren ikke er frisk har jeg

[15:38.48] <cxp> applegroo er ikke helt frisk i hodet

[15:42.12] <cxp> applegroo: psykose, hektisk krise, sjekk hua di

[15:50.13] <skorpion> Er du like psyk i dag?

[16:30.29] <cxp> hver dag

[16:30.42] <cxp> jeg er urolig

[16:32.16] <skorpion> Du klikka jo helt i går

[16:32.19] <skorpion> Var du full?

[16:32.54] <cxp> gjett

[16:33.05] <skorpion> Ja

[16:33.06] <cxp> prøv litt å bruke hua

[16:33.08] <cxp> hodet

[16:33.20] <skorpion> Men det var ikke vanlig fyllerør heller

[16:33.33] <skorpion> Det så mer ut som et slags psykotisk anfall

[16:33.33] <cxp> les nøye

[16:33.44] <cxp> og prøv å forstå

[16:33.52] <cxp> hva skjedde

[16:34.36] <cxp> dere bør tenke litt mer om hva skjedde i går

[16:35.03] <skorpion> Rusindusert psykose er hva jeg tenker

[16:35.16] <cxp> hva gjorde meg å skrive tekstmur

[16:36.09] <cxp> og hva slags ord og uttrykk skrev jeg

[16:36.17] <skorpion> Bare rør

[16:36.45] <cxp> tenk !

[16:37.23] <skorpion> Skal du late som at du skrev dikt eller noe?

[16:37.34] <cxp> de linjene har flere ting in common(?)

[16:37.42] <cxp> på norsk ??

[16:37.56] <cxp> de delere visse konsepter

[16:38.00] <cxp> deler*

[16:38.09] <skorpion> Ja, de var om deg

[16:38.14] <skorpion> Ditt følelsesliv

[16:38.17] <skorpion> Virket det som

[16:38.33] <cxp> nei

[16:38.45] <cxp> de var om skizofreni

[16:38.51] <cxp> psykose

[16:38.58] <cxp> mental lidelse

[16:39.11] <skorpion> Er du skizofren?

[16:39.17] <cxp> kanksje

[16:39.46] <cxp> og jeg kanskje tar piller eller ei

[16:39.58] <cxp> kanskje*

[16:40.34] <cxp> skal ikke være mer nøyaktig

[16:41.19] <skorpion> Du var psykotisk

[16:41.25] <skorpion> Som følge av et eller annet du puttet i deg

[16:41.38] <cxp> nei

[16:41.39] <skorpion> Psykose-Chris

[16:41.48] <cxp> les linjene igjen

[16:42.06] <skorpion> Nei

[16:42.17] <cxp> ja, chrisxp = Chris PsyXose

[16:42.17] <skorpion> Det er grenser for hvor mange ganger man skal lese vås

[16:42.24] <cxp> c x p

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[17:03.35] <rabagast> !start

[17:04.29] <rabagast> didnt your sort this stuff already?

[17:08.07] <skorpion> Snakk om quizz-iver

[17:11.23] <rabagast> oh yeah

[17:13.24] <rabagast> it can be quite the task perhaps

[17:13.43] <rabagast> getting some tcl script going

[17:14.05] * col- is now known as Collyk

[17:14.13] <skorpion> Jeg lagde et helt TCL script fra scratch sist gang

[17:14.23] <skorpion> Men jeg er ikke i humør til å drive med sånt nå

[17:14.40] <skorpion> Og john_cons vil heller ikke ha meg med på noe quiz-lag tror jeg

[17:14.47] <skorpion> Så jeg har sagt at jeg heller kan spytte i penga

[17:14.50] <skorpion> Finansene

[17:17.44] <rabagast> might be stuck on the road to/from hell

[17:18.22] <rabagast> john_cons

[17:18.57] <rabagast> saw on the blog about these working men and their cars

[17:20.18] <rabagast> I was a narrow space. 2-3 meters at best to avoid those guys

[17:21.07] <rabagast> when you worry about such things I recon getting some TCL script running will take a year or two

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[18:05.52] <rabagast> injustice

[18:06.30] <rabagast> why arent amnesty international doing something for john_cons?

[18:06.49] <rabagast> they must have gotten 10.000's of mails so far

[18:07.46] <skorpion> Because they're a bunch of wankers

[18:41.35] <cxp> something like cxp

[18:56.18] <rabagast> yeah, they should have a full force working 24/7 with this :)  All the evidence they need is in that inbox

[18:57.13] <rabagast> it makes BLM like childs play when compared to this

[18:57.30] <rabagast> +look

[18:58.18] <rabagast> guess a lot of those black people got what they deserved anyway

[18:58.47] <rabagast> this here, one innocent guy

[19:04.38] <cxp> i want to escalate a protest into a riot and into a revolution in Norway

[19:04.53] <cxp> and get shot in the process

[19:05.39] <skorpion> Cool story, bro

[19:12.07] <rabagast> I'm off

[19:12.07] <rabagast> skorpion: see you around faggot :)

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[19:14.49] <skorpion> Vet ikke hvem han der er

[19:14.56] <skorpion> Men navnet lyder kjent

[19:14.57] <skorpion> Hmmm

[19:17.42] <skorpion> Fluffy/Anywhere?

[19:25.07] <skorpion> Mulig

[19:25.14] <skorpion> Men jeg mener å huske å ha sett den nicket for lenge siden

[19:25.24] <skorpion> Muligens under Quizkonsern-eraen

[19:30.32] <cxp> https://www.nrk.no/vestland/innreisereglar-for-eos-borgarar-skapar-full-forvirring-_-hundrevis-skal-ha-blitt-bortvist-1.15462117

[19:30.55] <cxp> skorpion: go shoot justisdept. shitheads in the head

[19:31.27] <skorpion> æraen

[19:31.29] <skorpion> eran

[19:31.33] <skorpion> Noe sånt

[19:31.43] <cxp> people who live in norway and go out cannot come back in

[19:31.46] <cxp> retard

[19:32.41] <cxp> make norsk govt drown in its own blood

[19:32.54] <cxp> for being retards

[19:33.17] <cxp> where is a Breivik when you need one ?

[19:33.42] <cxp> pull a Breivik on the retards running Norway

[19:33.50] <skorpion> You're back to normal, I see

[19:34.05] <skorpion> I'm doing a caricature portrait drawing of you now

[19:34.13] <skorpion> In a bit more realistic style

[19:34.20] <skorpion> It's gonna be good

[19:34.41] <cxp> skorpion: go Breivik on your retarded gov

[19:34.46] <cxp> go unhinged

[19:35.15] <skorpion> Breivik didn't attack the government

[19:35.25] <skorpion> He killed a bunch of kids who didn't like Israel

[19:35.41] <skorpion> I fucking hate that cunt

[19:37.28] <skorpion> No

[19:37.41] <skorpion> But that would of course have been a big contradiction

[19:37.56] <skorpion> It's an unrealistic hypothetical scenario

[19:39.57] <cxp> Breivik attacked regjering

[19:40.06] <cxp> the van with the bomb

[19:40.42] <cxp> outdo him, kill the entire staff of justisdepartamentet

[19:43.07] <skorpion> I don't think he managed to kill a single guilty person

[19:50.05] <cxp> you can do better

[19:58.38] <skorpion> I could, but I'm too happy about my life at the moment

[19:59.06] <skorpion> Since I have a really good cxp sketch I'm now going to turn into a refined drawing

[21:04.59] <cxp> mental illness

[21:05.06] <cxp> on both sides

[21:05.13] <cxp> cxp and skorpion 

[21:06.02] <skorpion> Yeah, well, I don't have psychotic breakdowns like yours

[21:06.46] <cxp> you still didn't figure out why i wrote those lines yesterday evening

[21:07.29] <skorpion> I did, but you're not paying attention

[21:08.12] <skorpion> You were drinking, or using drugs, and combined with your depression you had a psychotic incident

[21:08.14] <skorpion> It happens

[21:11.02] <cxp> you're trolling

[21:11.02] <skorpion> We all poop our pants once in a while

[21:11.31] <cxp> try again

[21:11.39] <cxp> decipher those lines

[21:11.41] <skorpion> Nah

[21:11.46] <skorpion> I'm busy with the drawing

[21:12.34] <cxp> am I again a repugnant creature of darkness?

[21:12.43] <cxp> with black holr eyes

[21:12.51] <cxp> hole*

[21:13.13] <cxp> or you draw me differently

[21:13.50] <cxp> draw Mohammed

[21:14.05] <cxp> if you want to get killed

[21:14.42] <skorpion> No, I'

[21:14.47] <skorpion> m drawing the whole face this time

[21:45.48] <cxp> impossible

[21:46.06] <cxp> you cannot draw the eyes

[21:46.10] <cxp> https://youtu.be/XZ-KILptSJQ

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[22:32.36] <skorpion> I'm trying to express your sadness as well as your tragic character

[23:07.27] <skorpion> Is that so

[23:07.30] <skorpion> Which one

[23:07.45] <skorpion> Ah

[23:07.47] <skorpion> Gollum

[23:08.05] <skorpion> In caricature, one of the methods you can use is to use a spirit animal

[23:08.14] <skorpion> An animal you associate with the subject

[23:08.27] <skorpion> It's a good method to get the likeness

[23:08.45] <skorpion> I could use Gollum as cxp's spirit animal I guess

[23:14.37] <skorpion> He might have had when he was a halfling

[23:14.39] <skorpion> Or hobbit

[23:39.20] <cxp> vagina Gro monolog

[23:39.38] <cxp> walls of text

Mer fra irc

Session Start: ons. apr 21 12:05:15 2021

Session Ident: #quiz-show

[00:05.15] <cxp> death feels good

[00:05.21] <cxp> becoming nothing

[00:05.47] <skorpion> Okay, bro

[00:11.04] <cxp> try it

[00:11.07] <cxp> start dying

[00:13.22] <skorpion> You're such a classical depressed whiner

[00:13.46] <skorpion> You're in that phase where you're just deliberately exacerbating your own misery

[00:14.11] <skorpion> You're depressed. Deal with it.

[00:14.42] <skorpion> Try to face reality for once

[00:14.47] <skorpion> See how that makes you feel

[00:14.51] <cxp> you want to die every fucking die

[00:14.55] <cxp> day*

[00:15.00] <skorpion> Lol, no

[00:15.10] <skorpion> I deal with my depression

[00:15.20] <cxp> you don't even dare sleeping

[00:15.23] <cxp> like normal human beings

[00:15.29] <skorpion> I have sleeping issues

[00:15.33] <skorpion> Nothing to do with daring

[00:15.39] <cxp> applegroo: your problem is that you want to smash 

[00:16.07] <skorpion> applegroo, his problem is that he craves

[00:16.13] <cxp> smash your skulll on a mountain

[00:16.15] <skorpion> Being depressed used to give him a good feeling

[00:16.18] <cxp> that is your secret wish, applegroo 

[00:16.40] <skorpion> So now he is just chasing that feeling until the end of time

[00:17.03] <skorpion> Same thing with his trolling

[00:17.13] <skorpion> It used to give him a nice warm feeling to troll on IRC

[00:17.18] <skorpion> So he just kept doing it more and more

[00:17.23] <skorpion> More and more extreme trolling

[00:17.28] <skorpion> Then one day, it gave him nothing

[00:17.32] <skorpion> So he became sad

[00:18.13] <skorpion> He's a leecher of positive energy

[00:18.30] <skorpion> He's a fucking black hole

[00:19.39] <cxp> skorpion: your brain is severely damaged

[00:19.45] <cxp> from whatever the fuck drugs you took

[00:20.02] <cxp> you are a total loser on irc

[00:20.09] <skorpion> Your perception of me is so off

[00:20.16] <skorpion> You still haven't figured out that I'm a straight arrow

[00:20.39] <cxp> 3rd after loller (biggest loser) and john_cons (madhouse loser)

[00:21.20] <cxp> applegroo: you want to die , but didn't figure out yet how

[00:21.42] <cxp> you got a byke

[00:21.46] <cxp> take it to the limit

[00:21.48] <cxp> and smash

[00:22.14] <cxp> skorpion: you are a cockroach of irc

[00:22.27] <cxp> hiding in obscure places such as this corner of a madhouse

[00:22.39] <cxp> the #quiz-show shit

[00:22.49] <skorpion> I'm in #Norway

[00:23.07] <skorpion> Which now has more normalfags than ever before

[00:23.19] <skorpion> In its whole history on IRC

[00:23.47] <cxp> maybe your fate was sealed

[00:23.51] <cxp> from birth

[00:24.10] <cxp> you cannot overcome your limitations

[00:24.19] <cxp> you just rot jobless on nav

[00:24.42] <skorpion> If I could overcome them, they wouldn't be my limitations

[00:24.44] <skorpion> Idiot

[00:25.14] <cxp> you lack willpower

[00:25.17] <cxp> moron

[00:25.48] <skorpion> True

[00:26.13] <skorpion> But here's the thing, Chris

[00:26.19] <skorpion> Every time someone says something about you

[00:26.28] <skorpion> Something negative

[00:26.33] <skorpion> You immediately deflect

[00:26.42] <skorpion> And start talking about other people

[00:26.56] <skorpion> Look at yourself, faggot

[00:28.14] <skorpion> I'm starting to think that you maybe were severely beaten as a child

[00:28.27] <skorpion> This is how you became this extremely fragile and sensitive person

[00:28.46] <skorpion> Who is afraid of looking at himself

[00:29.50] <skorpion> This is perhaps also why you never want to answer questions about your family.

[00:29.56] <skorpion> You always dodge them.

[00:31.59] <cxp> true

[00:32.07] <cxp> why talk about private things

[00:32.17] <cxp> especially when they are ugly

[00:37.07] <skorpion> Lol. You're talking about death and killing yourself day and night

[00:37.30] <cxp> life is ugly

[00:37.31] <cxp> a nightmare

[00:37.43] <skorpion> Then share your ugliness

[00:37.47] <skorpion> Share your life story

[00:39.01] <cxp> you know it

[00:39.04] <cxp> a nightmare

[00:39.12] <skorpion> No, I don't

[00:39.19] <cxp> even the fact i was on irc for so long is part of the nightmare

[00:39.27] <skorpion> Not the specifics

[00:39.34] <cxp> happy people do not ever enter IRC

[00:39.38] <cxp> or even use internet

[00:39.46] <cxp> they are too busy enjoying life

[00:40.10] <cxp> irc is for fucked up failures about to go down in flames

[00:40.42] <skorpion> You want to revel in misery, but only in this vague, abstracted misery you have created for yourself

[00:40.49] <skorpion> You don't want to face the real misery

[00:40.58] <skorpion> You don't want to talk about the real facts

[00:42.36] <skorpion> You grew up in a Romanian orphanage or something?

[00:42.43] <skorpion> We used to hear alot about those

[00:43.04] <skorpion> In Norway

[00:44.23] <cxp> yes

[00:44.29] <cxp> they found me in garbage

[00:44.47] <skorpion> True?

[00:48.53] <cxp> whatever makes you happy

[00:48.59] <cxp> in your delusional assumptions

[00:49.04] <cxp> just like i am creative about gnom

[00:49.15] <cxp> imagining things since he refuses to share his life story

[00:49.39] <cxp> i live in his past

[00:49.40] <cxp> lol

[00:51.01] <skorpion> I am guessing, true

[00:51.05] <skorpion> You're making statements

[00:51.10] <skorpion> Big difference

[00:51.47] <skorpion> I'm ASKING you

[00:52.32] <skorpion> If you don't want to share anything, there is no point in listening to your pointless whining

[00:53.01] <skorpion> It means you probably don't have any good reasons for the whining

[00:53.12] <skorpion> So no need to feel sorry for you.

[00:54.22] <cxp> why should i whine

[00:55.58] <skorpion> Good question

[00:56.02] <skorpion> Ask yourself that question

[00:57.08] <cxp> yes

[00:57.09] <cxp> why

[00:57.11] <cxp> i dont like to whine

[01:00.35] <skorpion> LOL

[01:00.38] <skorpion> That's a big lol

[01:00.42] <skorpion> You love whining

[01:00.49] <skorpion> Like I told applegroo earlier

[01:00.56] <skorpion> You used to get a good feeling from whining

[01:01.19] <skorpion> But you've whined so much now it's not giving you anything anymore

[01:01.40] <skorpion> Hence your misery

[01:09.27] <cxp> nope

[01:09.34] <cxp> i whine, but not detailing

[01:09.38] <cxp> so it is not really whining

[01:09.45] <cxp> just a generic whining

[01:09.49] <cxp> about how life sucks

[01:10.39] <skorpion> Wow, such a stupid excuse

[01:15.23] <cxp> what excuse ?

[01:15.34] <cxp> if i write why i whine, it would mean i really whine

[01:15.47] <cxp> if i just write generic whining, it is moderate level

[01:15.52] <cxp> not desperation

[01:16.25] <skorpion> Moderate level?

[01:16.26] <skorpion> Lol

[01:16.42] <skorpion> Okay, bro

[01:16.50] <skorpion> Whatever you say

[01:16.59] <cxp> where do you see intense whining?

[01:17.09] <cxp> since i don't even talk about personal reasons for whining

[01:17.10] <cxp> moron

[02:05.47] <cxp> https://imgur.com/45VDTdN

[02:05.56] <cxp> see ? i make art too

[02:06.00] <cxp> i made that in Excel

[02:30.02] <skorpion> It looks like Romanian wallpaper from the 1970s

[02:30.09] <skorpion> Something like that

[02:41.30] <john_cons> cxp: my aunt Ellen did charity-work for romanian kids/retards, after the end of the cold war

[02:41.48] <john_cons> https://johncons-mirror.blogspot.com/2021/04/tante-ellen-hadde-et-slags-kall-som.html

[02:50.44] <skorpion> Yeah, many Norwegian do-gooders were into that

[02:51.27] <skorpion> I remember one of our neighbors used to collect old clothes and send them to Romania

[02:52.15] <skorpion> Who knows, maybe you've used my old underwear, Chris

[03:06.35] <john_cons> my aunt lived in switzerland and had a son (joakim) that was a retard/mongoloid, (joakim was one year older than me, they're both dead now)

[03:07.00] <john_cons> and my aunt wanted to help the retarded children in romania, because noone cared for them after the end of the cold war, she said

[03:45.48] <skorpion> Yes, they had many orphans

[03:45.59] <skorpion> Lots of kids with mental and physical disabilities

[03:46.13] <skorpion> Tragic situation

[03:50.31] <john_cons> ellen fikk en datter (rahel) med sin sveitsisk/italienske ektemann reto savoldelli, i 1978, (ni år etter at joakim ble født)

[03:50.44] <john_cons> for de mente at rahel liksom skulle være joakim sin medisin

[03:51.17] <john_cons> for da ville joakim (som var veldig tilbakestående, han lærte vel aldri å snakke), liksom herme etter rahel, og bli normal

[03:51.34] <john_cons> noe min farfar mente var uetisk, (husker jeg)

[03:52.06] <john_cons> å få en unge, kun for at den liksom skulle som medisin, for en annen unge

[03:52.07] <john_cons> noe sånt

[04:25.20] <cxp> i like how john_cons documents history

[04:25.38] <cxp> i dont know much about my aunts, etc

[04:25.58] <cxp> and i started to forget them

[04:26.09] <cxp> tidlig demena

[04:26.14] <cxp> demens*

[04:30.29] <john_cons> you chatted something about an orphanage, so perhaps you knew my aunt, (from her work with poor children in romania), i was thinking

[04:31.07] <john_cons> ellen ribsskog savoldelli

[04:31.10] <john_cons> her name was

[04:32.43] <john_cons> skorpion sometimes jokes in a way i don't understand (like with amanita in 2012), so it could have a been a joke i didn't get right away

[04:39.59] <john_cons> one of my grandmothers was danish-born and she always sent letters to everyone, informing them about what the other relatives where doing, so not much chance of forgetting an aunt etc

[04:43.16] <skorpion> Yes, chats with cxp always fluctuate between jokes and seriousness

[04:43.23] <skorpion> You just can't take the guy seriously after a while

[04:43.32] <skorpion> But the comment about orphanages was actually serious

[04:43.38] <skorpion> I was trying to dig into his past

[04:43.45] <skorpion> But he won't talk about it

[04:43.52] <skorpion> But anyway

[04:43.57] <skorpion> Good night, chatters!

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[16:09.20] <cxp> i failed in life

[16:09.28] <cxp> i should kill myself

[16:10.27] <skorpion> Yeah

[16:12.31] <cxp> yes

[16:12.49] <cxp> failure is a capital offense

[17:30.14] <cxp> i was born to fail

[18:03.37] <skorpion> Yep

[18:11.34] <skorpion> Indeed.

[18:22.01] <cxp> a true artist has to suffer

[18:22.24] <cxp> i want to drag skorpion out of his house and burn it down

[18:22.48] <cxp> so he suffers homelessness and poverty

[18:23.28] <cxp> his drawing skills will exponentially improve

[18:27.38] <skorpion> Lol

[18:27.39] <skorpion> Probably

[18:27.42] <skorpion> Like Hitler

[18:27.53] <skorpion> I shall achieve Hitler-level quality in my drawings

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[19:27.16] <cxp> should I kill myself today ?

[19:27.37] <cxp> i am 10% of what i should and could have been

[19:27.55] <skorpion> Yes and yes.

[19:27.55] <cxp> i am nauseated when i realize my failure

[19:28.02] <skorpion> Naturally.

[19:28.20] <cxp> when i get moments of clarity, of self-awareness

[19:29.19] <cxp> the gigantic gap, the abyss between what is and whst should have been

[19:29.25] <cxp> what*

[19:29.43] <cxp> my failure is stunning

[19:29.46] <cxp> unreal

[19:30.04] <cxp> to waste my life so abjectly

[19:30.18] <cxp> i deserve a bullet to the head

[19:30.50] <cxp> irc is just some venting channel

[19:31.01] <cxp> some swan song

[19:31.25] <cxp> i am a pile of misery

[19:31.38] <cxp> and i live in misery and fear

[19:31.59] <cxp> a bullet would save me

[19:32.05] <cxp> an easy way out

[19:48.09] <skorpion> So why do you think you deserve it?

[19:48.45] <cxp> to end my misery, my fear, my mental torment

[19:49.15] <skorpion> I asked you why you deserved it, not what it should be used for

[19:52.05] <cxp> i deserve peace

[19:52.20] <skorpion> Why?

[19:53.55] <cxp> dont ask me

[19:53.59] <cxp> i am biased

[19:55.44] <skorpion> Okay, applegroo do you think he deserves it? loller?

[19:55.59] <skorpion> I don't think anyone think you deserve it

[19:58.25] <cxp> my misery will outlive everyone

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[20:46.12] <skorpa> https://youtu.be/5VVobKP3ato

[20:46.26] <skorpa> MY FRIEND OF MISERY

[20:46.30] <skorpa> Chris

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[21:40.58] <cxp> skorpa: you wanted to jump today

[21:42.03] <skorpa> No

[21:43.03] <cxp> from a fjord

[21:43.12] <cxp> a cliff

[21:43.22] <cxp> into the fjord

[21:43.40] <cxp> angst og depresjon

[21:43.46] <cxp> skizoaffektiv

[21:43.51] <cxp> paranoid

[21:44.01] <cxp> halusinasjoner

[21:44.36] <cxp> hjerneforstyrrelse

[21:44.48] <cxp> Erik

[21:45.03] <cxp> stemmene i hodet

[21:45.25] <cxp> psykotiske medisiner

[21:45.38] <cxp> full psykose

[21:46.00] <cxp> å vise universet

[21:46.14] <cxp> noen bestemte at jeg skulle DØ

[21:46.40] <cxp> å snakke med selv

[21:47.03] <cxp> telepatisk kontakt med folk på TV

[21:47.28] <cxp> telepatiske evner

[21:47.46] <cxp> å mumble samtalene med seg selv

[21:47.50] <cxp> uroen

[21:47.53] <cxp> kaoset

[21:48.12] <cxp> det må ta slutt

[21:48.30] <cxp> annerledes mamma

[21:48.40] <skorpa> https://youtu.be/TMbnZoFIiQU

[21:48.40] <cxp> Erik fikk fri

[21:48.47] <skorpa> I added a little bit of music to my drawing

[21:48.51] <skorpa> Tribute to you, Chris

[21:49.16] <cxp> foreldrene er psykisk syke i Norge

[21:49.21] <cxp> tusenvis

[21:49.40] <cxp> de trenger omsorg

[21:50.02] <cxp> pappas medisiner

[21:50.14] <cxp> for mye ansvar

[21:50.22] <cxp> de må roe ned

[21:50.46] <cxp> tvangsinnleggelse

[21:51.29] <cxp> dømmedags

[21:51.34] <cxp> domme?

[21:51.46] <cxp> med politi til sykehus

[21:52.12] <cxp> lettelse å ha mamma i sykehus

[21:52.20] <cxp> var du redd?

[21:52.31] <skorpa> Hva faen skjer

[21:52.34] <cxp> å gå til himmelen

[21:52.58] <cxp> indre urp

[21:53.01] <cxp> uro

[21:53.11] <cxp> jeg var lei meg

[21:53.36] <cxp> det tok knekka på meg

[21:53.39] <skorpa> cxp, did you see the video

[21:53.45] <cxp> det hindrer meg

[21:53.53] <cxp> er du bitter?

[21:53.57] <cxp> forbanna

[21:54.01] <cxp> mye sint

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[21:54.19] <cxp> følelsemessig

[21:54.25] <cxp> livsvarig sorg

[21:54.35] <cxp> jeg stoler ikke på folk

[21:54.56] <cxp> en prosess

[21:55.03] <cxp> jeg føler skyld

[21:55.27] <cxp> barna mine? aldri

[21:55.34] <cxp> å håndtere helvete

[21:55.45] <cxp> psykose

[21:56.02] <cxp> jeg trenger å bli passet på

[21:56.19] <cxp> i ferd å bli syk

[21:56.36] <cxp> det værste som kan skje

[21:56.43] <cxp> sterk medisinert

[21:57.08] <cxp> å holde sjelen i SJOKK

[21:57.23] <cxp> psykologi

[21:57.48] <cxp> i bakhodet? ingenting

[21:57.58] <cxp> psykotiske symptomer

[21:58.31] <cxp> det er farlig

[21:59.02] <cxp> resten av livet i psykose

[21:59.17] <cxp> å være ydmyk

[21:59.48] <cxp> krevende forhold

[22:00.02] <cxp> sinte foreldrer

[22:00.17] <cxp> sinte barn

[22:00.29] <cxp> jeg er ferdig

[22:01.54] <cxp> dumnezeii ma-tii

[22:17.33] <skorpa> applegroo, har du sett ham sånn som dette før?